When Life Gets in the Way
Life can get in the way of anything. For me, this blog is a passion pursuit. Health and nutrition have been my passion for more than a dozen years now. My dream is to one day get the nutritionist license I so desire, that piece of paper that confirms that my 12 years of study are actually worth something. Yet even when it comes to something we are passionate about, we can get derailed.
I am coming back to this blog after a longer hiatus than I’d like. There were some holidays and a big birthday celebration for our oldest son. There are still balloons and streamers littering my living room. I am praying that the trickle of presents has finally stopped rolling in! (Our sons really do not need any more toys for me to clean up!) I still have thank-you cards left to write. In fact, I should be writing them right now.
That “should be” is what has kept me away from this blog for so many weeks. There is always something I “should be” doing in my home. I “should be” putting away the folded laundry. I “should be” spending more time reading to my kids. I “should be” tidying the train wreck that is my bedroom. I “should be” more hands on with my kids as they color or sculpt play-doh. I “should be” cleaning the bathrooms more often (or at all). I “should be” cooking dinner every single night (rather than relying on leftovers). I “should be” making more play dates for my kids so they get appropriate social interaction. I “should be” mopping and vacuuming more often. Add to these the obligations outside of the home… I “should be” there for my friends when they need me. I “should be” sure to call my parents on Skype regularly. I “should be” visiting the sick. I “should be” calling the elderly. I “should be” sending cards to cheer up lonely old people. I “should be” calling Grandpa more frequently.
Trying (and inevitably failing) to keep up with all the “should be’s” is futile. I can hardly keep up with all the “must do’s” that permeate my life! Unfortunately, when we put “should be” in front of every item on the infinitely long potential to-do list set forth by ourselves, our children, our partners, our parents, our families, our friends, our society, our religion, our community, our country, our world, we can never succeed in doing everything. Tony Robbins isn’t going home at night and doing the dishes, mopping the floors, and calling every long lost friend and family member he ever met. Nobody can do everything.
When we try to do everything, we do get a lot done, but is it really the right stuff? For me, becoming beholden to the “should be’s” has led to me putting this blog, a passion that makes me excited to wake up, on the back burner. That is a real shame.
I will do better in the future. For the moment, however, I take solace in one fact: Each day we get to reinvent ourselves. Just as each meal is a new opportunity to eat healthfully, so too is each day a chance to return to the path of our passions. Each day gives us a brand new opportunity to start anew. Why wait until January 1 to make resolutions? And why, if we make a mistake and break a resolution, is it “broken” and not simply an opportunity to “restart” it? A dream deferred is, after all, still a dream ready to be lived. I know I am going to defer no longer. My dream restarts again today!